“OMG”. What was I thinking?
Two more days till November 1st. Two more days till NaNoWriMo begins and I officially begin the descent into madness. Who wants to bet that by November 30th I’ll be a trembling puddle of a human slumped in a corner with bloody fingers frozen in a typing pose and a distant gleam in my eye. Actually, let’s not take bets on that, the odds are stacked too well against me.
It’s beginning to dawn on me that I have no idea what I’ll even be writing. I tried the outlining thing… I came up with a general idea of what I wanted the story to be about and attempted to flesh out the characters and put things into a time line… All of which has been a failure of epic proportions. Oh sure, I have all these wonderful, quirky, and lovable secondary characters, but I have no idea who the main character is. I decided the story would span roughly a year’s time.. I’ve managed to put down about a week on the outline. SO, I’ve decided to throw away my meager attempts at planning and just wing it.
The Scream by Edvard Munch
I’ve been in a rather strange place mentally lately. I suppose I’m always in some strange place. This painting, The Scream, keeps coming to mind. Maybe it’s the abundance of gore movies I’ve been watching, the stress from work, or even this killer toothache but I’ve felt for the past couple of weeks that I’m just about to let out a blood curdling scream. I can feel it in my bones, crawling under my skin, tensed at the back of my throat, it’s there, building up with great anticipation for the moment when I begin ripping the flesh from my skull as it splits in two from the cacophonous caterwaul.
Maybe I’m being a bit melodramatic, but how often do you get to use the word caterwaul seriously? I suppose it is most probably just stress. The arrival of fall always induces some odd sense of panic. Especially this one with its fast approaching quarter-century milestone and ever lingering job uncertainty. No matter the cause, I sure wish someone would shut up this wailing loon in my head, she’s really starting to become a distraction.
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